"This Phase"

by Mike Defendant 

I'll take me a PBR, a straight shot of whiskey and a seat at the bar. I'll sit here for the rest of the night, watch my tab go up as the feeling gets right. I think I could be OK, if I could just make it through another day. Sometimes I wonder why I even try, things would be easy if I let myself die. 

I'm not gonna do it, at least not today. But every now and then ya know I feel that way. my mind hasn't been the best to me, it's overcome by anxiety. Looking back to when I was a kid, it didn't make sense until one day it did. I've worked hard to see through the haze. With the right medication I can get through this phase.